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With the right people, or perhaps with a well-laid plan and a well-conceived brand, maybe you could save the world…
But what if that came with a trade-off? What if that meant losing a precious opportunity to know yourself better?
Currently, it’s a temptation to leave the testing room of this Final Exam and focus on externalities. As I’ve mentioned frequently, it’s true that the Final Exam faces us with the collective shadow, so in being tested personally we will see widescale social problems.
But if we simply stay focused on the external social part of the equation, we will have walked away from our desk.
It’s likely that will only make things worse for us, because as we focus on the errors in the external world we begin to neglect the finer details of our own life—until it’s too late, and our essay is submitted to the test monitor, full of elementary scribbles.
Take this meme posted in response to an Elizabeth Warren tweet. She sees the collective shadow: an inability for large structures to take into account individual desires.
But she neglects to see that she’s speaking to the problem as an ivory tower government employee. Rather than look within and cast her eye over the home front, she ends up coming off as tacky.
She shows up more like the detached Kroger execs she mentions, instead of standing shoulder to shoulder with those rustic wage earners.
The central energetic theme of these next two weeks is to go within to the rustic part of ourselves. In that place, problems and solutions are simplified. One needs food. Ok, check. Salty or sweet? Sweet. Ok, check.
Needs are simply acknowledged and addressed because there’s no “middleman.”
The tangential ramblings of cold rationality lead us away from inner nurturance, further into the labyrinth of some external problem, where we seek the center rather than become it.
Systems tempt us with the idea that we must attain the thing to prove that we really desire it.
Thus, we may feel compelled to chase wants and needs which were always reliable and just “there.” Like we’ve forgotten all of the sudden our favorite color and flavor of ice cream.
Under the spell of hyper-rationality, our sense of self can fall apart—and quickly, even.
Bonds Not Chains
In recent newsletters, I’ve spoken about how we become enchained when creating a middleman between ourselves and the object of our desire.
This is the modern problem of identity as craven idol. One isn’t encouraged to simply subscribe to this or that niche on YouTube. Instead, the niche, like self-improvement, becomes the all-consuming identity.
And so is the goal really achieved—or does one stay in this middleman limbo, enchained to some entity that promises resolution?
But while we should probably avoid adopting a virtue signaler identity (see the Warren example above), we don’t have to deny the value of fighting the good fight.
It’s the idea that we’re all in this test together!
Isn’t it nice to know that, even though we must all be tested individually, our good friends are at the desks around us, sharing this unique window of time?
The collective nature of this moment helps us dig deeper within, rather than pick at some external folly.
Yes, lot of patience and temperance is required from us now. That’s why I call it Final Exam, not Pop Quiz. It’s tough, long, comprehensive.
And I’d hate for many of my fellow classmates to think that they didn’t have it in them to help tie up this momentous collective chapter, simply because they think others are doing better on the test than them.
Don’t concern yourself with measuring up to some obscene standard. Everybody has to stay until the bell. It’s the great equalizer. Take solace in that.
This is a time to remember and commemorate what has always nurtured us, not impose excessive self-judgment.
Good friendship reminds us of what brought us to this point: through sharing our struggles, shoulder to shoulder, we find the resolve to reconnect with our origin story.
We recall where we came from and who we are at core, as individuals.
Your favorite flavor is simply your favorite flavor. You connected with that joy at some unself-conscious point, and it made you who you are. Honor it.
My Favorite Things
Just to give a wide overview again:
At a general level, this is a test about self-trust, about taking our desire as its own reward because it expresses the truth of our heart.
You can still want to achieve the object of your desire, and take action towards that.
But it’s imperative that you don’t route through any “middleman” or “third party” to get there—which includes using other people to get something and trying to over-engineer an outcome by focusing on the process that gets you to the object of desire.
Because you want to go to the raw source—your ever-abundant desire—rather than wed yourself to the process.
Processes are subject to disruption or corruption; they can even take on a life of their own.
That’s a real beast you don’t want to be dealing with: a freakish Frankenstein of your creation, which is now running amok over your life and the lives of others. Just look at what the US Government has done to our culture with its “processes.”
“Ah, but I simply wanted to get from here to there, I thought by doing this it would move things forward…”
This is also why you’re seeing Code Red levels of drama at the micro level right now, too. Someone went to do one thing, trying to engineer an outcome, and it spiraled off into nuclear oblivion.
Which again, this is why it’s important to simply go the rustic route, the slow route: “What I know is what I like, what nurtures me…”
And we can change our tastes over time, for sure. Maybe we’re long overdue for a new favorite flavor!
We’re doing a lot of self-investigation to work through that, though. And it always helps to have an origin story, to see why you’re leaving something behind.
Are you truly ready for a new favorite thing—or have you become possessed by a dazzling promise, which makes you want to nuke the old, because the past is too hard to look at?
How can you love something new if you demonize, doubt or shun the soul food that once nurtured you before?
You can start anew while not denigrating the old.
We all change our tastes over time, but if you peer closer, you’ll probably see within your new favorite flavor a rustic hint of your childhood joy.
And that’s when you start to realize: the only way to give a wrong answer on this Final Exam is to deny who you are at core.
The right answer is always found on the homeward bound path.
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